last post of the year, dunno why when I want to post this, I feel abit gan3 shang1.

2009 had not been a great year to me AT ALL. Alot of things happened in this year.

the most horrible period in my life was probably in July. When my gastric could no longer tolerate my weird body clock and my weird eating habits. It just took one day for it to get really bad that I can hardly get off my bed. I remembered how I struggled home that fine day when I thought I was going to faint on the bus, walked all the way from bugis to home. My regret will be not taking care of myself and letting myself get into such shit. Sadly, I only have myself to blame for all these.

I got my most horrible results in my whole life. UUUUE. during midyears. It was kind of expected, cos I knew I screwed my midyears as I could hardly crawl to school to take exams that time. Everyday I will wake up, I will puke. Feel damn horrible. Maybe you can't imagaine how horrible it can feel, it's a total hell. okay, I dont want to talk about it anymore. It's great that everything's over now! :) on the other side, I received alot of concern from my friends. Very touched that people remember me. Ivy and huiling will msg me almost everyday to ask if im okay. And I'll complain to mama ang and jj about how stressed I was. Im also lucky to have classmates who show constant concern when I get back to school. The first time I ever freak out during exams was during midyears also. I feel totally unprepared and I told myself I can't flung midyears again like how I did for block test. perhaps it's the pressure that I put on myself that made me almost gone mad.

Once again, I freaked out during prelims also. sian ttm. the most fortunate thing that happened will be that I didnt freak out during A's. lucky lucky. :)

Enough of my gastric problem, let me talk about the things I appreciate and enjoy this year.

the first thing that came to my mind, STUDY GROUP! haha, it started off quite awkward at first. I still rmb the study group started at tpy mos burger, I suggested that location though it does not provide a very gd environment to study. We studied at alot of places, the last place we ended up at was liang court! I miss going to study group, but I dont miss studying! I miss crapping with them! I miss all the suaning between the guys. I miss the love triangle between fx, jj and anthony. yah, not to mention that they are a bunch of very helpful people who always help me with my horrible math. xie xie ni men! :)

of cos, talking about study group, it links to one of my closest bunch of friends that I have, my dear 6A mates. It's great we still keep in contact after so many years. we broke the great wall that exist between us when we were back in p6, and it lasted till until we were sec3. lucky got the snap game that totally brought us together. Or else it would be a pity not getting to know them better. they are a bunch of people who nv fail to entertain me with laughters and joy, I recalled alot of times I went to study group in a damn emo/sad/pissed mood, I bet they all would never have guessed when that happened as I don't really show it(at least I think so). Thanks for cheering me up everytime. Oh yah, so as to not get stomach cancer and not get angry cos a hungry man is an angry man(quoting from fx), we should really eat at proper times next time we go out! haha. I'll tryyyy to make that happen!

other than 6A, the closest bunch of friends I have is the ZH gang, or shud say the NY/ZH gang. haha, they are the usual clique. Ivy, huiling, xinhui, mingying and ophelia! they are people who really make me happy too! they are people who I look for when I have problems, when I'm crying and when I have happy things to share. I can't imagine life w/o them. I think my life will be super boring! haha. Although they always annoy me, they are uber cute at doing it la. I shall forgive yall if yall start talking rubbish again. lol. I will miss chilling with them. I will miss going tpy to drink koi and eat white town coffee. I will miss hanging out with them. I will miss passing my unfinished food to ivy! haha. I will miss suaning ivy got flabby arms and everything cos she annoys me in the same way. I will miss how we talk late into the night until my dad start getting mad at me. I miss hanging out oppo zh until super late. I miss complaining about NY together. I will miss how we have sleepover and we dont sleep! love you girls! <3

this year, I'd let go of certain things, hopefully and held on tighter to others. hmph.

And yah, lastly the last group of people who entertained me through my lonely times at home, SUPER JUNIOR! They make me happy too! Love Kim Ryeowook and Park Jung Su ttm! hehe.

2010 will be a much better year for me! Hello 2010!




wahhhhh, its been long since I've blogged. I wasn't in the mood of writing anything for the past few days. but I was thinking I shud write a post before 31st dec when I will sum up everything for this year.

21-23dec: 6A chalet

21/12
Once again, people were late again. hais, if one day nobody is late, the sun shall rise from the west. me, mama and yu met for lunch before meeting the rest. when its meeting time, fx was late and jj was at dover! omg la. haha shouldnt harp on it too much, cos I may be late for future outings also, hehe.

Then we reached pasir ris chalet, cs and edwin were alr there. checked in and played some card games. luck wasnt on my side at first, hmph. of cos, me, mama, yu and simin have some surprise for the guys! haha we wrote cards for them! It's all our heartfelt thoughts that we were afraid we wont have the chance to say it to them anymore. so we decide to pen down our thoughts. :) we hope to tell everyone we really appreciate their presence during outings and study group. xie xie ni men! :) and yah, we were damn bad at hiding, or should say we weren't really hiding it. we're just afraid things may be awkward if others whom we didnt write to come early. played molly, teamed up with jj and edwin. we were supposed to be the 'winning team', that what we called ourselves, but in the end we were the only group left with negative points. hais.

soon when simin had arrived, we gave the cards to the guys and made them read on the spot! hehe. I hope they really get what we are getting through. soon we went out to eat dinner! with all the people who were coming joined us. :) mama, yu, simin, michelle, jj, cs, fx, don, edwin, wenxuan and boyi were here. thereafter we went to the archade, tried para para for the 1st time and I really suck at it, I didn't clear the stage reulting in the failure of stage 3! sighhhhh. bo yi was damn good at it la, people closet mugger, he closet dancer! hahaha, oh my that sounds wrong. played bishi bashi too! the new version! quite fun quite fun!

then we went back to the chalet for christmas exchange! played some Indian Poker to decide who gets to choose 1st. Mine landed up with JJ while I took edwin's cadbury choc! I like the pink carebear I bought, I think JJ likes it too! gdgdgd. :)

we htht-ed throughout the whole night! talked about alot of things. then went out to take a walk, I was walking behind wen xuan and boyi. I walked with mama ang at the back of the whole group, while the rowdy big group were at the front. htht-ed with mama ang throughout the walk.

after the walk we decided to go back and everyone start KO-ing. I cant really sleep that fast la. I was sleeping beside dear yu, who fell aslp 5 min after lying down. I tried to poke her to get her attention but she ignored me! I watched the ceiling and soon fell aslp.

22/12

woke up and went for breakfast. bo bian have to split into 3 tables. sat together with fx, yu and mama. we realise that we talk for diff things from the other table(jj's table), who were talking about cars I think, I wasnt really eavedropping actually.

went back to the chalet and played asshole taiti. wah this time my luck was coming. I was the noble for quite a number of times. happy happy. the dunman gang was mahjonging. soon the guys start to play ps, me and mama just stoned and listened to songs to pass time.

somehow the guys stopped playing ps and some raping thing was going on between the 2 guys. lol, the guys again. I immediately escaped from the bed cos unfortunate me was sitting just beside them, the action pack should leave to your imagination ba. hehe.

went to the archade then, played bishi bashi, para para(this time I got an S! S for super!) and daytona. very long nv play daytona liao. got 2nd in the race, happy happy!

then we went back to start the bbq while mama and the 3 guys start to camwhore! lol the photos are super cute la, you can never imagine they will do such poses. -.- I was busy poking hot dogs and boneless chicken wings then. went out to fetch people in while the people settle the money issues. went with simin to fetch xiangjing, emily and shangyu. we were telling them about how the 3 guys are gaying la, in case they get shocked when they witness their love. hahaha.

soon after I came back, I got chocked by the smoke! wasnt feeling very well then. and I didnt get chocked by fishball! da! WRONG. I cant believe yu actually thot I chocked on fishball! haha, pulled chenying with me to the reception to breathe in fresh air. talked to chenying when she accompanied me. chenying really nv change throughout the years. I really miss her laughter and I miss suaning her too! haha, I didnt really suan her while chatting la. htht-ed with her. she's still the cute cy I knew years ago. soon ppl began to realise my absense someway or another and started calling me, yah yu misunderstood that I choke on fishball then. I told them I was okay, I just needed some air. Went back after feeling much better.

I realise I missed out the whole photo-taking session! sorry chenying! because of me, you werent in it too! hmph. but I still took the organisers-feeding-people the photos. I looked super unglam la, omg. then it was emo time, the 3 main organisers made a very touching speech. I cried while taking the video with jj's cam. I never cried that hard in front of so many people before. damn malu la! but it's true that I really cant bear to say goodbyes to these group of ppl who are v impt to me. aiyo, dont say so rou4 ma2 things here le.

waited for the teachers to come. It was really a pleasant surprise that they come! It's nice having 6A being together again, with our form and chinese tcher plus miss kuan, talking and having one another's company. though I was zoning in and out every now and then, still I enjoyed their company. :)

then it's camwhoring time, while people continue to play mahjong. we went out to take a walk and came back cos fx was tired.

23/12
slept and checked out the next day. not to mention, it was my first time squeezing with 2 people on one bed.

24/12
went out with toy for dinner. met her at city hall and went to raffles city's streets to eat! the food there is relatively cheap and nice! shall go there again! went to shop around town. basically just chilling and chatting with her. not to mention, that girl is a shopaholic man, she bought damn lot of clothes from malaysia!

25/12
xmas went out with toy, xh and ophe at bugis, before meeting up with mingying at suntec to eat astons. I really cant rmb much lei, omg my memory failing me! (according to toy) we went to buy stuff and eat dessert at bugis before going home.

26/12
date with chipmunks! went to watch alvin and the chipmunks! they're uber cute la. "call me..." awwwww! your heart will just melt man! Theodoreeeeee is so cuteeeeeee! I WANT A THEODOREEEEEE! muahahahahaha.

27/12
went to pei toy to see evan yo yo yo! he's TADAHA la, I like! He's always greet people with his charming smile! awwww. love him! <3

28/12
finding job@ ah ling's house. type and send resume until my eyes see stars...

29/12
stay-at-home day. being chua4 every now and then when the phone ring! cos it means an agent is looking for me! damn nervous throughout the whole day.

30/12
went out for interviews at recruit express! hope I get a job soon! so I can spend more money! muahahahahaha.

tomorrow
6a outing plus stayover at qian's! :)




tired tired tired. :(

I've been going out almost everyday, this might explain why I am so tired everyday. yawns.

Today went out with ah ling and xh. Just accompanied xh to get her stuff cos I'm obviously broke. :( Anyway, xh says my eye bags and dark eye circles are better now! happy happy. :) I swear I nv put any concealer today! hehe.

I wanted to cry out loud yesterday. but I realise I was in a too-good mood to feel even abit of unhappiness. I guess people around me makes me happy. :)

(due to my tired brain, I lagged 10min before trying to recall what I wanted to write)

6A chalet plus xmas outing up next! :)

I don't want this year to end somehow. I miss NY somehow, surprisingly. I miss going to classes with 0823. I miss walking ard with pak in NY compound. I miss meeting the ZH gang in the canteen every morn.

I miss hanging out with 6A(soon that will happen). I miss going to study group. I miss us standing around deciding whr to eat/go next. I miss suaning JJ/mama. I miss not doing anything when I went to study group. I miss how we are like a family, telling things to one another and looking out for one another. I miss eating the same thing over and over again at liang court, yah that chicken and vegetable soup! I don't like the feeling that people are going to miss our outings, cos I can sure feel that sth is missing.

hmph, I'll soon miss my girls. But I shall say that next time.

I believe that people will keep in contact if they have the heart to.

Suddenly, the mood of mine turn damn emo now. Somehow I felt that I've became stronger. I'm not going cry over the same thing again, I've got to learn to smile and let things go.

yupyup, keep smiling people. cos seeing you guys happy, makes me happy too. :)




I don't understand why. But you are my addiction.




I hate this part right here.

I hate goodbyes, seriously.

I hate myself constant reminiscing into empty memories. I'm not going to do it again. I'm not going to do it again. I'm not going to do it again.




last birthday celebration with the usuals. Met toy and ah ling at sk at 4pm! and I wasnt late for one of the first times, cos I didnt want to spoil their plans, if any. Went to fairprice to get our supper! Korean instant noodles plus heaven and earth green tea plus chicken sausages!

Headed to CHIJMES after we put down our stuff at my hse to meet the rest (ophe, xinhui and mingying). soon after the rest came, we dined at the japanese bbq restaurant. their food was not bad, but we didnt tried their bbq stuff though. then we headed down to marina square for desserts! We filled most of our stomachs there, the waffles were awesome and the peach high there was good too! Ophe and xh left first, then the rest of us headed down to esplanade. we stayed to watch the outdoor performance and joined in the writing the wish thing which is hung on the lamp look alike structure. Hope my wishes come true! :)

then came home and settled down. we watched yu le bai fen bai and ate our instant noodles. its nice eating supper at late hours, esp korean instant noodles plus sausages. happy happy. :) then we watched 17again, I watched it before but don't mind watching it again cos it was quite entertaining and funny actually. 'are you peacocking?' LOL. then we watched love on the diet, ah ling fell aslp halfway. hmph.

by then it was 7am liao. then we were all rotting already. we left at 8 for breakfast and went home!

after that, I went out to meet the 6A people, my brain wasnt working in the correct manner. suffering from lack of sleep, hehe.

I went home and slept from 2 to 1 straight, waking up halfway cos I felt hungry and went back to sleep agn! zzz, that explains why I am so awake now and my brain is finally working now at 2.36am! -.-

Lastly, thanks girls for the birthday present. really love it! I know yall dont have much artistic talent but the gift was really nice. :) xie xie ni men!




HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA ANG! Though you are overseas now.

Anyway I came across Taeyang's Wedding Dress lyrics! weh nice. love it.

Taeyang- Wedding Dress

Some say it's not over till its over
Guess this is really over now
There's something I gotta say before I let you go
Listen

When you have a fight with him
Sometimes you cry
And feel sad and blue
I become hopeful
My heart aches secretly
Then just a hint of your smile
Can make feel fine again
To keep you from figuring out how I feel about you
Coz then we would drift apart
I hold my breath, bite my lips
Oh, please leave him and come to me

Baby, please dont take his hand
Coz you should be my lady
I've been waiting for you for so long
Please look at me now

When the music starts
You will vow to spend
The rest of your life with him
How I prayed every night
This day would never come

The wedding dress you're wearing
It's not me (next to you)
Oh, the wedding dress you're wearing, oh, no

You never knew how I felt about you
And I hated you so
Sometimes I wished you would be unhappy

Now I have no more tears left to cry
When Im by myself I talk to you like you're here
I've felt so restless every night
Maybe I've known all along this would happen
I close my eyes and dream an endless dream
Please leave him and come to me

Baby, dont take his hand when he comes to you
Coz you should be my lady
I've been waiting for you for so long
Look at me now

When the music starts
You will vow to spend
The rest of your life with him
How I prayed every night
This day would never come
The wedding dress you're wearing
It's not me (next to you)
Oh, the wedding dress you're wearing, oh, no

Please be happy with him
So that I can forget you
Please forget how miserable I looked
It's going to be unbearably hard for me
For a long while to come

QIANHUI
HWS/ZHSS/SAJC/NYJC
eighteen






tan
yuanyin
jiecai
marjorie
weihan
simin
ching siang
xiang jing
jia jun
michelle
lijun
doreen
xinhui
mingying
chenying
cheeling
elaine
0823
4e3
FT
stephh
daryl chee
valerie tan
iris
jiwei
vanessa
valerie
weiting
tiffany
joanne

Super Junior-Reset

April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009
December 2009


x x x x